When life throws more downs than ups, having a way to escape it or to numb the pain seems to be much needed. For me, life has been rough. There’s been way too many situations that I haven’t been able to control or fix. I’ve been able to see the truth in a lot, but I haven’t been able to have a say in any of it. Right now, it seems like many of the aspects of my life are dark. Needless-to-say, the stress of it all has taken over me. I have been struggling with trying to find any form of calm that I can. Talking it out helps so much because it numbs all the pain I’m feeling and blocks the reality of where my pain is stemming from. When I keep things inside, I take things too far most of the time, and I say things I shouldn’t. I hate moments like that. I get this feeling in the pit of my stomach when I remember who I was when I was lost. I don’t want to become my worst enemy and begin to hate who I am. I don’t want to lose my ability to see the light at the end of the tunnel or the parts of my life that are healthy. I want to reach my arms out and grasp the life of being healthy, happy and the REAL me. I don’t want to use stress as an excuse for being a horrible person anymore.
We all have those moments in our lives that seem to take over who we really are. Weaken our strengths and enhance our demons. It’s at those times that we have to remember who we are deep inside and realize we don’t deserve to feel the way we do in those moments. It’s okay to cry, to talk it out and even stay quiet and to yourself if that’s how it works for you. We need to understand that even in the darkest moments, light still shines through. Tomorrow is a new day, so we must hold on to the hope and belief that our demons will fade and our strengths will once again take over. That we will smile again, laugh again and believe in the beauty of a new beginning. All the struggles we face, feel and hold on to are just the tools that make us stronger. It’s hard to believe that, but it’s true.
Let’s dance in the rain, not hide. Let’s lay out in the sun. Feel the beauty that is life. Because at the end of the day, you are YOU. And you are incredible.